After the first doctor visit, I did a lot of research online. I had done a lot of research before that appointment too, but now it all felt more real, more possible. The doctor said she'd send a request to my insurance company...so I just had to wait. I made the mistake of watching an actual surgery on YouTube...and the doubts and fear started creeping back in.
And then, the letter came! I think a small part of me was hoping that I'd be denied so I could put surgery out of my mind. But there were the words in print: "Your request has been approved." It's an odd combination of excitement and dread that comes with elective surgery. Though, I'm pretty sure I'd be driven over the edge of insanity if I had to do another round of bra shopping, so I suppose it's just about picking the lesser of evils.
I called my plastic surgeon to make an appointment. I was told that I should wait a year after weening my breastfeeding baby, which would mean a December appointment. I want to make sure to have the surgery done before the end of the year and December just feels too close to the cutoff, so I opted for November. My pre-op physical will be in October. With dates on the calendar, it really feels like this is going to happen!
When I started researching breast reduction surgery, I came across a few helpful blogs. It was good to hear that I wasn't alone in my secret pain...and good to hear all the aspects of surgery that a doctor wouldn't think to tell me. I started writing privately just to sort out my feelings, but I think it's good to have this information out there. I hope it's helpful to someone. You are not alone!
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