Leading Up

Everything has been a blur since my last post and now I'm one week past surgery.  I started this blog as a way to deal with all the stuff in my head, a way to process my feelings about surgery.  But, I think I got to a point where I just resigned myself to go for it and I really haven't looked back since.

About a month before surgery, I heard it through the grapevine that a high-school acquaintance had a breast reduction just a few months ago.  I looked her up on Facebook and asked if she'd be willing to answer some questions.  She went totally beyond just answering questions and invited me over!  Her openness about her experience really helped me feel more confident about my decision.  Before this point, I was feeling timid about sharing anything about surgery on Facebook.  Looking back, I'm not really sure why I felt that way.  Just insecurity, I guess.  I'm still not going out of my way to tell the in-laws, but I'm not trying to hide it either.

Once I "went public", it felt like ladies started coming out of the woodwork.  Whether they had it done themselves or knew someone else who had, they all had positive outcomes.  Very reassuring!

So, from then until the date of my surgery, I've been BUSY!  More precisely, my mind has been busy.  I had a lot of arrangements to make, and I felt like I had a constant ticker tape running through my head.  I wanted to get things as clean and organized as I could, and I finished up any projects I had started over the last few months.  Now in hindsight, I am happy to say it all worked out!  All that time spent thinking paid off...there isn't anything that I would have done differently.  That alone makes me very happy.